in a lot of ways he kept me afloat while simultaneously anchoring me to this world.
he allowed me to have confidence in my actions, giving each decision such weight and importance.
now i'm not sure where i'm left at the moment.
i'm not sure what my being is, what my placement is now.
such security provided for 4 years... and now i'm not sure were I am.
confidence, that is now shaken, twists and contorts my internal dialogue to one of alienation. my lens has a hue of self doubt